Theres a reason why animal cruelty is treated as a gateway into really criminally violent behavior towards humans, you know? Id clean them up every day. I Love Him soo much. I also look to at the kennel, did they exercise him to soon after eating/ was it a stressful kennel ? I was so excited. I saw a single rabbit bolt down a hole when she saw me. She said the urine was normal yet it showed blood and protein. Yesterday morning I heard him struggling and struggling to scratch through his cage and I just tried to ignore him even though I still felt really bad. After they all staying with me for a while in my bedroom , where I usually play games, we all go downstairs and I let them in the yard to play. We share ideas to encourage women over 40 to make positive changes and Blossom in a new season of life! I asked if I could pick her up right before closing (totally assuming they would treat the sugar and hypertension with the extra time while having some time to observe). Get another dog, yeah, and show that dog the kind of love you showed to Bella. If you're being honest, and there is actually some type of problem other than you being a bad person; then you need to get help. If only I had checked to make sure. In my effort to protect the wound and let it heal, I caused her another, more serious, problem. I gave her no food the night before the operation. Hell be fine, we assured ourselves. . I loved him a lot. and I moved my outside chair closer to her who I let out of the cage already and bam- she got frightened and flew up a short tree. He will come home when hes ready, like he always does. I feel so much guilt that i killed him and Im so so sorry for everything. I finally got a call back after 3 from the vet. I should have just returned home when he stood there at the entrance. She said she put him under the covers while he was going through his episode but she said thats how he likes to sleep, Im thinking to myself if he was panting it he probably was hyperventilating and if the actual condition didnt kill him then maybe he suffocated under the blanket because I couldnt move even if he wanted to because his front legs were paralyzed. I carried him to the home and tried to feed but he refused. My 15 year old cat, my best friend, my child even, was fairly healthy, being treated for hyperthyroidism. My first pet snow a beautiful white cat my friend gave me. By [consciously] killing a frog, mongoose, crow, cat, boar, mouse or a dog, a twice-born person . And don't get another dog. I interviewed veterinarians, grief counselors, and pet experts for the best ways to survive the death of a beloved dog or cat, and I included stories from real pet owners who coped with guilt and grief in sometimes surprising ways. When I was younger my dog had gotten out without me knowing and followed me to a friends house. In general, if you stop and make a reasonable effort to help the animal, the legal responsibility for the accident will not fall on you, but on the owner for allowing the dog to run loose. She died at 4 years old because I neglected her. The topics discussed include practical . My mind was distracted and I just feel I could have made contact with the neighbour more and asked about them while we were away. One by one our four adult children who grew up with her and loved her so much came home. She was the sweetest dog. Sorry. I sent her for necropsy because I needed answers. Bella's prancing around somewhere now, carping away at the daffodils and poppy seeds that have now become her playground. I know she had a good time for half of her life but she shouldve lived much longer and she shouldnt have died like that. This book will help you understand why your feelings are so overwhelming, and help you cope with the guilt you feel about your pet's death. The vet said they dont know whats wrong because it would be a whole bunch of expensive tests, but he gave me anti seizure meds that I was supposed to be giving him 2 times daily. Although Bella's new, the other dogs have taken a liking to her, especially the Golden Shepard everybody else calls Kion. Our perfect 6-month old rabbit Lolly died under anaesthesia on Monday and it was probably my fault. Sue August 30, 2022 at 11:03 am . As Alan tried to rush through the revolving doors, his neck got caught in it, also getting the male worker stuck . I lost my best friend Felix on Tuesday. We had him for about a year before he became very sick while we were out of town. I picked her up and took her to my family hoping they would say it wasnt her body but it was. I was in between a coffee table and the sofa she must of been coming up behind me about to bite them. O-Q Joined 19/06/2019 Posts 2,152 06:04 PM 25/06/2019 ahaha, mistakes happen!-White girl. The topics discussed include practical suggestions for grieving, ideas for remembering and memorializing ones pet, understanding the many emotions experienced after the death of a pet, understanding why grief for pets is unique, pet funerals and burial or cremation, celebrating and remembering the life of ones pet, coping with feelings about euthanasia (and guilt about putting an animal to sleep), helping children understand the death of their pet, and things to keep in mind before getting another pet. I couldnt catch him. that's what happens to dogs that die, regardless of the kind of dogs they were. My darling, my princess. Completely dehydrated. Im sorry and I hope you forgive me prince, I know you suffered and it wasnt right, even if you were going to die regardless last night I shouldve not left you in there with mom, I shouldve taken you to the vet so you could go peacefully. Same happened to me my cat got stuck in the cat door a while back on the collar , and if i was not there to see it she would have died , but after she became deaf on both ears cus i took her to a bad vet that miss treated her ears and made her deaf , i had so much blame cus of that , anyways after she got stuck like that i promised my self she should never have a collar on again , but since she now had become deaf i dident want her to get run over by cars this winter in the dark , cus she cant hear them , so i decided i will risk putting on the collar again so she wont get run over by traffic , 1 january my other cats woke me up screaming at me , she was stuck in the cat door and suffocated to death and its all my fault for putting the collar on her again , i have not been able to eat in 3 days , im so ashamed and feel guilt of her death , never been this sick and heart broken ever in my life , even after losing family members (people) not pets , losing a 11 year old friend u saw and talked to every day , every morning and night before u go to sleep , head bumping love , all ripped away and i caused the death of my beloved cat cus of my choices , u are not alone , this is horrible , the worst thing , i can barely write this without choking up , barely breathe.. She had done well with this. I walked with him to the barn area also on occasions. I finally got her when people helped get the pitbull off she died within minutes. The manager 86 him. I know it's been a long time but I don't think I ever accepted the loss, and I still blame myself and our carelessness. I believe in my heart that Felix would still be here had I reacted faster. But I dont blame her neither, since its COVID and I think she was also wary of going in at times when our sitter was already intending to. He lost his life because of me . Itll help you deal with guilt when you caused your pets death. Collapsed, hyperventilating, tongue hanging out of her mouth, but with eyes open. i have friends but our relationships arent strong. I cant describe the guitlyness I am feeling right now for leaving him alone and died. Low and behold, there she was. i put him in the new cage i had bought for him, which i didnt use because i didnt feel right having him caged up all day, and i dragged the cage to the balcony and left him out there while i cleaned up. She soiled herself at the onset and at one point I put my finger in her throat to check for foreign body and she subsequently bit down quite hard. Realizing shes fine here and there without food and water. She was very warm which led me to believe this didnt just happen. I thought when she was 10 to take her for an check up for general health but didnt. I went there with a tiny bit of apple along with raspberries that was Lollys favourite. I tried several other options and called the vet. After one hour she lost her breath she died im so dumb i should have taken her to the vet earlier i should have taken an appointment to the vet the day i found out she lost her appetite so that the next day i can bring her to the vet . Thankfully, Hannah (Florios sister) is both a lovebug and an attention hog. Hes with me for 7 months i still remember the day i got him he was a cute kitten but was very afraid slowly he learned his name and so many things Id everything to keep him well. And I could have asked that the neighbour go in morning and night just to double check they werent wanted to be in or out. I never saw seizure activity in an animal before. Well, I got a big awaking from my vet he told me hes your dog now and lets treat him and get him betterand I brought him home. I phoned another hospital 25 mins away, they could see her, but again, my hands were tied trying to save her. I noticed weeks ago that he was not feeling well. That means a dog of 20 pounds or 9 kilograms may survive if the dose is . - iKlsR. He immediately turned to run back to me, our eyes connected just before he got slammed by the bus. - JoshDM. Sleep tight. Then I decided to take him to my vet to put him to sleep instead. Press question mark to learn the rest of the keyboard shortcuts. The vet says its not my fault and she has underlying issues. I hope God will forgive me and my precious dog named Pima. So given that I believed the arrest was the result of these fluids and the stress surrounding the day, I continued aggressive cpr. Truly the most beautiful creature Ive ever laid eyes on. If you killed a dog with a knife by accident, unpleasant events are waiting for the dreamer and his family. Grieving the loss of a pet is often as painful as mourning a close friend or relative. I wish I could get justice for Buttercup and for myself. I never saw her with that ununsteadiness, rapid breathing, or weakness. Almost never Barked. I deserve to feel this way. Ive been crying every single day since. i find it hard to talk to people and bond with anyone. The main ingredient in Vetoryl is trilostane, which works by blocking the production of cortisol in the adrenal glands. Its a fucked up confession but what therapist treats their patient by telling them how awfully they are? I loved her so much. A few years ago we had adopted a kitten named Ryuu. I petted her and then turned around to hug my son. I saw improvement on the increased dose. But I'm the one that did it and the guilt is tremendous. Another dog will receive the same kind of love that it so desperately needs now. This never happened nor do I recall any discussion of hypertension. I did think twice about it before I put her to bed for the night, and ran it past my wife, but she said to me shell be fine. i had the dog for about 6 months and i loved him, i really did. Tiny had been stuck out on a wet night where it got below freezing. My wife was on the call too. If you feel remise and know it's wrong you can be better. Losing a friend sucks. Then I told her to watch him and I went to bed, she woke me up in the morning and I came down not knowing or hearing her tell me he was dead in the bed, so I looked for him thinking he was alive and pulled the blankets back and went to grab him and he was dead, stuff eyes open. Dreaming that his little life wasnt cut so incredibly short by my carelessness. On Thursday at 6.45 pm I accidentally backed over our beautiful family cat Bella, 16 years old. Request. So many people don't care about animals and they live long lives to be abused, then these loved animals have misfortunate accidents. so this saturday i came home to a messed up house and i snapped. We had one call as an update, saying that Lolly was running around and eating and seemed okay, but the operation had been delayed because an emergency case had come in. Many dogs have died as a result of ingesting much more than the recommended dose. My wife accidently killed my dog. I will not put her through that. My heart is with all of you. A mutually supportive community where deeply emotional things you can't tell people you know can be told. Even the most innocent pet ownersfeel guilt over a pets death. I intended to take her to the vet soon regarding the legs and for thyroid re-check since her appetite was increasing. It happens that instead of just tapping him in the ass and letting him go the rest of the way I accidentally use too much force and make him do a 180 around his leg and he falls on his back and head. I only wish I could have done things differently and could be cuddling my girl instead of mourning for her and feeling this tremendous amount of guilt. Answer (1 of 6): First, I am sorry. ). Likely brain damage. I wanted so much to save her and give her all the love she hadnt had until the day I found her. Eventually another highway patrol officer showed up and they again tried lifting the seat off. My poor darling Pixie she was in so much pain and it felt like she was crying out no no when I picked her up to put in the basket to go to vet. I accidentally killed my dog. How will I ever be able to forgive myself? I became frightened for myself and felt agony for her suffering. I dont hit my dogs , yet , since theyre not very trained, I yell at them when they are doing something stupid. I miss my beautiful girl. Your child won't understand for a long time so don't take that personal. I told her I loved her. She did eat a reasonable amount before we left the house, and some in the car on the way there. I tried honking the horn to get another truck drivers attention. (I'm assuming a lot here, please correct me if I'm wrong). She then began to have spasms of her extremities. It was two weeks before they could get him in. Fern tries to play with her; theyre working out a dynamic. He died because of me. Monday night could not find him in the home or garden. I really loved him, but I feel like I became so selfish amidst the stress in my life. I never expected her to get so bad so quickly. After the recording I removed . A few days later now. The guilt you are inevitably carrying around ever since that day must weigh incredibly heavy on your heart. My wife is an amazing, loving person and I (obviously) want to spend my life with her. Blood started oozing out of his mouth. my dog was dead. So we got the pig in july I got a cage and food and waterI taught my kid how to handle it so I didnt have to be bothered. I also had been neglecting to fully clean him up and bathe him since we were at this new place. I continued with rescue breathing. She was refusing food yesterday and it was hard giving her medication properly. She knew it meant a trip to the vet. Create an account to follow your favorite communities and start taking part in conversations. Oh my god that's awful, BUT people accidentally killing their pets is slightly common. Please take a moment to read it its the comments on this article that inspired me to write it. I lost my 3 year shih tzu on Thursday. Im so sorry that I failed you. I can only imagine if we hadnt of left him at a new kennel or if wed got him out of the stressful home environment sooner then maybe he would still be here. Although the specific reason for feelings of guilt differ from person to person, almost everyone feels some guilt after the death of a pet. All i can think of is i killed my baby. I could have tried to push his head out harder. It wasnt alarming but she was definitely more active than usual. It only took the site of his black fur and and his beautiful little feet to know it was him. Most often, we believe we had more control over the situation than we actually did, and this is the cause of our guilt. When Your Pet Dies: A Guide to Mourning, Remembering and Healingby Alan D. Wolfelt is a guide for pet owners who are struggling with grief when their pet dies. I know that my grief and pain is causing my husband and children more pain than theyre already experiencing so I know that I need to find a path forward bc I dont want that for them. I should have just returned home. But then my cat died and now my hamster is gone and its my fault for not making sure the fort was secure, the pump was covered, and I wasnt there to save her. a dead man walking. I really did and I know thats probably hard to believe in reading this but, she was my baby. U should visit a professional that can help you with anger issues and I can recommend do not get a pet again its just not for you. He died not even after 3 days. It was the only way of loving her I had. He didn't say anything, but I think he knew. I rescued him as a pup running down a busy road with 3 other pups with him. The active ingredient in slug bait is metaldehyde, and it can cause uncontrollable seizures in pets. The following taboo topic article might surprise some, but I assure you that dogs killing dogs within the same household is common. So for the next two days with an excessive heat warning in place I looked everywhere and called out as best I could without irritating any neighbors, I placed her cage out with food and water and rattled her bell she loved everywhere. I dont understand it at times. Maybe it would help to talk to your parents about it, ask them how they feel about the incident? I put my finger through the mesh to stroke her ears. He was trying to pretend I couldn't see him. By accepting all cookies, you agree to our use of cookies to deliver and maintain our services and site, improve the quality of Reddit, personalize Reddit content and advertising, and measure the effectiveness of advertising. Examples of NSAIDs include aspirin, ibuprofen, naproxen, and indomethacin. I love her so much and Im so glad I knew her, but at the same time if somebody else had adopted her as a baby they might not have been an idiot like me and she might be alive today. @JoshDM I wouldn't know whether to expect a lick or a bite. Accidentally killed my dog!! I left the apple outside the entrance. I shouldnt have taken him out. I went in, I told her. I quickly got up and tried pulling him and lifting the seat. But one of the tubes came out of a box and thats how she escaped. I worried about her dying if I kept up with this. My cat Florio died in my arms this morning of cancer. But I didnt have enough courage to do it becuase I was dealing with severe hurt and anxiety on the same day. You are going to save that dog from euthanasia. This last year we have lost our dog and another cat to illness and now our sweet kitten Zoe. Dogs usually experience mild side effects from fish oil. We'll listen, and if you want, we'll talk. Her pupils were completely dilated, muscles twitching, then she appeared contracted and unbeknownst to me at the time was entering a much more violent seizure. I put a on a glove and pulled it out. I wont go into details, but it was very traumatic, a moment in time that will likely haunt me for the rest of time. While I was cooking, sleeping, sweeping, when im going to tje terrace he was always with me. He must be hating me for not helping him. But its a horrible feeling. The most common one causes bleeding disorders that can be fatal. Your dog or cat loved you beyond all reason so you must have donesomethingright. I'm actually crying. The stress of money, work, kids, marriage, and daily life may have taken precedence over how you treated your pet. You took good care of your dog or cat in many ways; dont wave that away.